last night i watched tv until 12:30 and laid on the bed listening to music. but i can' fall asleep so that i have to get up and sit in front of the computer and do something.as far as i feel,there is no desire for sleep at the moment.

the temperature has rised to nearly 40 centigrade degree which is usual at this time every year.and at this time we complain a lot about it .thus it has shaped into a constant circle that everyone in Chongqing has to bear. as a result, most of my complainings are meaningless and insignificance .

last night i was told that the gathering on july 28th was canceled because many of them can't spare any time to attend it,especially lala and feifei,they are learning to drive.although i had a little interest in it but it has dispointed me very much when i was informed.from some aspect ,it was an expectation of mine and i hoped to meet some friends i hadn't seen for almost one year that day .now the fact goes like this and i can't do anything to change it .

however ,this can't bother me for long. just now i complained just because it satisfied me.actually i have talked to ones i'd like to so i think there is no other person i must to meet.just some people are left,who are not the most important and the least important.

so much for my today's complainings.   

once again i come here for my live spaces.now i wanna tell the reasons why i insist updating msn. for us ,there are so many categories of blog services while i chose this because its simple style. as for me ,the simplicity not only include the outlook of the website but also the silence in it.

today i registered an account at www.blogbus.com and hoped to transformed the content of live spaces to it.however ,the fact didn't come along with me so i tried to use the media of 163 in hope of its success but at last i found that the 163 blogger couldn't get all the journals from the live spaces . therefore ,i had to give up this thought and continued to employ live spaces.

what made me do so is that the networking speed into live spaces is too low and it makes me bored all the time though msn has done a lot to impove it.this morning i saw feifei's blog and its style satisfied me and i made the decision.yet experiencing it , live spaces is always the best in spite of its low speed. today i changed the color of live spaces into blue with gradually varied black which i love very much. it stands for silence and cool and connatation.maybe it is caused by that i like microsoft corporation and bill gates.some always say that the prices of microsoft products are very high and depreciate its products'  flahy outlook, but i can argue that their products are always limited to all the laws. for us ,many softwares or websites can provide us easier access to something than microsoft but most of them all out of laws. they sacrifice the legitimacy for the convenience.

what i said above inpires me about how to be a man. to be a man like microsoft or others ?i think most of us may choose to be men unlike microsoft because it is too hard .you should do all your best  and abey all the laws and morality but at last you may not get the rewards.

有半个多月都没有来看live spaces了。

其实从2号到家之后就没有时间来了。也不是说没有时间上的时间，而是没有想象的时间。很多时候要么自己懒惰不想来要么就是总有人在旁边不好意思写。呵呵。今天趁这个机会来写写，更新一下。

而今暑假都过了1/3了，感觉没有什么事啊！每天在家除了睡觉就是看电视，上网，偶尔看看书。其实今天还好，看了几个小时的小说。平时就是睡觉，很多时候都是早上10点后起床，下午1点睡到6点，晚上12点睡觉。就这样的生活。觉得自己还是有点堕落。但是这个词说多了就觉得没什么意义了。

在这些天还是有几天是很好的。9号到重大和左拉玩了一天，晚上他妈妈请我们吃了鱼。然后13号中午和王颖吃饭了，她请我的乡村基，我请她吃kfc的雪顶咖啡。下午可爱淘到我家了，然后15号早上回家了。而15号下午又去唱歌，也不知道怎么了，当天下午唱歌我是一点没有兴趣，就唱了一首《life for rent》。没有什么让我高兴的事。晚上本来计划要到一中操场去喝酒的，但是我和型男到江边去走走，一走就到9点多。呵呵。所以晚上还是很好玩的。补充一下，晚上我、型男、mw一起到乡村基吃的饭，而没有跟他们一群人到徳庄去吃火锅，本来是想一个人去的，因为胃口不好，没想到mw也差不多，而型男则“牺牲自己”来陪我们。很爽。因为在当天下午的时候我就在想找个时间只有我们三个人出来，结果当天晚上就实现了。让我很是意外。

其实17号的小聚更爽。当天晚上我们三个人吃了晚饭到一中后门集合，然后前往kfc。型男由于吃到则罚请我和mw喝水。后来mw也请我喝了一杯可乐。哎呀！！真是爽。喝着冷饮，在环境不错的地方一直聊天，料到10点多。真是畅聊啊！！不过我发现型男喷了香水的，这是我在看他手机短信靠近他发现的。哎呀！！真是的。。。。还发现mw很变态！！其实从来都变态。。呵呵。。

最重要的，在回家之前的一个星期我由于生病我瘦了了10多斤，回家后一个多星期又瘦了3斤，太爽了。前几天称只有128左右！！哈哈哈。。我终于比型男和可爱淘瘦了。。。可爱淘由于肌肉比较多，所以还好了。。但是对于型男，呵呵，他腰的肥肉好多，所以看到他我就忍不住要摸摸他的腰！！肥肥的，圆圆的。。哎呀呀呀！！哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈！！！！！

from now now,i hate the canteens most because it made me suffer a lot and lose 5 kilos weight.from one aspect,it may be a good thing to me that i can lose weight but i don't like the diseases that gave me much sadness.

coming home,i don't feel much more happy than i was at school.in fact this kind of feeling ocurred when i came back home from school for the first time.i think it is caused by my dreams beyond the facts.

besides, i am the first to return and i can't call on any people out to have a good time thus i feel a little lonely at the moment.

就是这样，昨天走了,同时带走了型男(王笑寒,又叫luilui),他乘上火车去了他的新世界-----大学 ...其实我也会走进我的大学...就这样,我们会与高中同学分开,又与大 学同学一起...鬼混...

准确地说,这应该是一种进步,因为我们必须生活..结交新朋友..但是不应该忘了老朋友..虽然我们会因为时间问题而淡忘感情,但是我们还是有一段那么值得回忆的时光...回忆...但当时间占据了大部分的空间时,我们能否回忆起原来的时光,这是个问题..天知道..或许天不知道..也许只有时间知道...

或许是因为我没有找到新的感情寄托者,所以我对王笑寒的离开有许多伤感...的确,好不容易找到一些好朋友,转眼间却要分开,或许老天从来不会让人与人在一起的时间太久,或许这也是为了让人的记忆只保留愉快与深刻的记忆吧,如果没有离开,我们也就无法尝受到那不同于伤心的伤感...

或许,

感情因为离开而显出其分量...

多少时候,我们都是失去了东西才发现其珍贵...人就是这样.欲望无止境...

不知道我们是可怜的动物还是什么,总会白痴地认为时间很简单..因此我们会给自己带来许多的麻烦...

化繁为简....

说着容易,但是很难做到...我们有着太多的事情牵制着..因此我们无法把时间简单化..那是因为所有人都把世界看得太复杂,因此世界复杂..了..

我们如同江水一样无法停下来,一直随着着复杂的世界滚到大海----生命的尽头...

原来有时候人真的会变...或许是因为我太理想化了,所以我不知道为什么其他人总会莫名其妙...天啊... 还记得曾经快乐的时光,准确地说,应该是我第一次体会到我所希望的愉悦...

oh ,yeah...

想念...所以只能依靠照片来维持记忆..因为我们没有那么多的能耐去记起每一分钟的快乐,因此照片成了联系的纽带..天...

看着我们曾经那快乐的笑容,真的好想回到那个时候,哈..白日梦..谁没有恩??或许这就叫做天真..看吧.我一个19岁的人天真..我真不知道我是幸运还是倒霉...啊...

其实..人很懒..有时候,只需要我们说出几个字,就可以改变..但是我们却无法说出那几个字..因为对于当事人来说无法预测未来...只有成为过来人才能够明白自己现在很后悔....

人与人的感情很奇怪.可以因为一句话坚固如金,也可以因为一句话就破裂..哈..比如说我不小心看到了马雯的照片并把李楚楚的照片发到了网上哈..当时我还很内疚..不过前天当我发现我其实并没有删除完她的照片时我表现出的是冷静..我不想在去内疚了..或许你们可以说我怎么样,不过真的很累...因为事实已经如此.即使我再道歉也无法改变....所以我不想去白费力气..

昨天好不容易见到了涂颖佳,说实话,还真想念她..哈..至少我觉得她是一个非常特别的人...然后一起看<<哈利波特与凤凰社>>.好看的电影..好玩的下午...好爽的天气...

一切都是那么的美好..很高兴她能够把我当成一个好朋友,不知道以后会不会这样...但是已经足够了....

enough....